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[ironicusername]

To reward myself on finals well done I think I am gonna write some more essays.

Question meme for Yuri Lowell and Dirk Strider

I also play Dave Strider at Decollage and Thusia if anyone wants to ask about him!

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[andcounting]

aaaany relationship updates with this guy?

[ironicusername]

Dere dere dere dere dere. Seriously just... Apollo is so great; Dirk wants to be just like him when he grows up. So good at feelings and being supportive of his friends and also rational. He gave him a free pass to do whatever he wanted in his heart, which is a thing he would trust only like, Jason, Jake, and maybe Rose with. HE THINKS THAT HIGHLY OF HIM.

He has definitely chosen Apollo as sort of his go-to guy for talking about things, and he does sort of feel bad about that. Apollo is someone he would like to protect from all bad things all the time, but Dirk has enough self-awareness to know that if he tries to handle all the emotional stuff in his life he will end up going crazy and probably hurting someone he loves in the process. So his talks with Apollo are kind of important self-maintenance, which he views kind of selfishly. But Apollo really does always say the right thing to him in terms of making him feel better; even after the heart game Dirk was reeling form sort of a huge blow with Hiccup telling him he was toxic so it was a HUGE deal when Apollo said he trusted him. He really needed to hear that. All in all Dirk gets the impression that Apollo cares a whole fuckin' lot which to Dirk is a really awesome thing to be able to express. He wants to make Apollo happy and to make him laugh cause Apollo deserve sit :x

Reverse.

[andcounting]

Dirk is correct -- Apollo cares a whole fuckin' lot. He thinks of Dirk as a little brother, and probably feels closer to him than anyone else in Aather except Rider right now. He does trust Dirk with his heart -- would trust him with his life -- and trusts him on multiple levels: to care, to have a rationale behind his actions, to be self-aware, and to have conviction. He's thrilled that things are working out with Jake, because Dirk deserves every happiness, and he is seriously honored whenever Dirk talks through stuff with him.

Apollo does worry that Dirk overcomplicates things for himself and takes on too much, but he also trusts him to know what he can handle, so it's not that he thinks Dirk should scale back as much as it's just... constant background concern and fretting on the matter. He's very worried about the thing with Rider right now, but mainly he's concerned about Rider being a basket-case; he can understand the freak-out over breaking stuff, but he has no idea where Rider's getting the idea that Dirk doesn't care, because it's just so evident to him that Dirk does. He doesn't express emotively, but his words and actions consistently point to the fact that he cares very much.

On top of this deep-level faith and familial loyalty, Apollo just likes Dirk. He likes his deadpan humor, he likes his elaborate metaphors, he likes his intelligence and that he's into stuff like robotics, and he likes his confidence. He doesn't always feel like he 100% gets where Dirk is coming from, but Apollo isn't actually someone who worries overly about needing to have a deep understanding of the people he cares about. Mostly he loves like a puppy; you're here and you're so great, you're just so great, it doesn't matter what you do, let me just get my dere all over you!! Apollo likes a lot of people in Aather, but Dirk is one of those people who makes him think, "I'm lucky to be who I am, where I am, when I am, because being me, here and now, means that I got to meet you."

SotU for Dirk?

[ironicusername]

Oh Apollo this is why Dirk is so dere for you .///.

Right now Dirk is in a really self-reflective place. Hiccup's comment about him being toxic following so close on the heels of him nearly fucking up everything ever with Jake really hit him hard, and are making him question the validity of is own machinations. This is not... a totally world-shattering thing; it mostly means that Dirk will be THAT much more careful and thoughtful about his actions. But he is looking at his memories and questioning whether maybe he wasn't too manipulative and bull-headed. He is taking Apollo's advice about being straight-forward to heart! As much as he can, anyway. The puppet master gig is kind of second nature to him; it's how he sees the world. And Dirk is perfectly capable of being straight-froward and manipulative at the same time.

AT THE SAME TIME he has all this introspection going on he is also trying to be really focused on Jake and Jason, 'cause he is aware these first couple weeks of his relationship with both of them are going to be critical in establishing the rest of it. And he wants to make them both happy so badly. This is also a pretty natural mode for him to be in; this is a dude he spent basically his whole life protecting and caring for his friends. CAN'T STOP WON'T STOP.

All this leads to Dirk being... okay. He still has a lot of anxiety over Jake and Jason, but that is mostly because he really doesn't know how to act in a relationship--or, more importantly, how to keep Jake interested and Jason happy. HE IS IN THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH JAKE knowing Jake doesn't feel quite as strongly as him, and that hurts, but in a negligible sort of way, because Jake is still his best bro and would never intentionally hurt him, and Dirk knows that. He is also hella anxious over events back home, and frankly, none of his memories are going to make him feel better about it. But as he becomes more aware of how isolated he was back home he becomes more eager to cultivate good relationships with people like Apollo and Cass and Naha, etc, and he does really enjoy getting to put his mind to work figuring out how to make them happy. Dirk has a lot of things to occupy his mind and time, and not all of them are good things, but Dirk is pretty happy as long as he has shit to do.

tl;dr 6/10 can't complain.

Your favorite changes in Apollo's heart!

[andcounting]

I am terribly entertained by the fact that the agent of resisting change got a repair mechanism while the agent of change is still in a coma. Being resistant to change is not really something Ned ever needs help with. I am also pretty glad the Helio Kitchen got all fixed up, because it is just going to make him so much more functional, which makes the game more fun for me. I'm ALSO pretty pleased/entertained by all the people he now has basically no inhibitions around, so. THAT'S FUN.

Any specific plans in the works for either of your characters?