Question meme

[ironicusername]

Question meme since Dirk is almost at 1000 and it has absolutely been a month since the last one you don't need to fact check me on this.

Primarily for Dirk Strider/Ruby Twinkle and Yuri Lowell.

And anyone else I play.

Oh right appearance update and some general info on mannerisms for Dirk.

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[uneulogized]

Tell me stuff about Dirk and Jason, please.

[ironicusername]

So obviously Dirk was not exactly planning this to happen!! He and Jason hit it off really well in the beginning; it was something of a relief to Dirk to be able to talk to someone and have them respond in more or less the same 'language'. The real first spike of affection/camaraderie was probably when Jason had that line about other people not knowing how to talk. Dirk recognized that Jason was unbelievably shitty at expressing himself for reasons that were very different from his own but there was still that land-in-the-distance feeling of thank god someone I am in close contact with knows how to TALK.

And we don't even need to talk about his line during Dormouse's game about getting Dirk to stick around. You know it was smooth, I know it was smooth.

As for the actual conversation Dirk was kind of fuzzy on what was going on there until it happened. Is this flirting :|a? Are we flirting :/a? I don't know he keeps talking about other shit this is the first time someone has SAID SHIT BACK about me making a sexual comment Oh I guess we're on the roof? It was sort of a 'before he knew it' kind of thing, which doesn't happen to Dork. He's more of a, knew it 3 years before everyone else, wrote a dissertation and published that shit you can look at the date and everything.

IT IS IMPORTANT TO NOTE that this post marked the point of Dirk switching from inward-focused to outward-focused--paying attention to his teammates as people, cataloging their various quirks. He had too much other shit going on but now he's sort of setting up base, so to speak. So while they were having their pre-makeout dialogue Dirk was doing his best to survey 1). Jason's needs and 2.) His ability to fulfill them without fucking himself over. 3.) His own desires. Which is why he wanted everything out on the table. Also the reason he insisted on being serious the whole time: these are the emotions of two people. It IS serious. Dirk knows he'd be able to handle saying "No, this isn't working" but he is aware it would probably be a huge blow to Jason's already nonexistent self esteem.

As for Jason himself, Dirk is aware that he IS a very sweet person--like pretty much all of his actions and utterances have indicated to Dirk that Jason Cares and is just horrifically shitty at expressing it sometimes and also really fucked up by his emotions and his past. Dirk is, actually, 100% more confident about his ability to handle these things as opposed to the actual relationship between them they got off to a pretty good start and he is pretty determined to pull this off successfully.

Reverse!

[uneulogized]

Jason is a lot of things: impulsive, emotional, and very, very quick to attache to people. This last part wasn't actually in place when he got to Aather, and his memories slowly slotted it into place. However, Jason was in pretty fierce denial of it, because he hadn't really let anyone in. He didn't buy into the whole team thing and while he liked people, he kind of told himself that they wouldn't like him. And then he got a memory that kind of solidly confirmed that teams were bullshit, that opening up to people would get hurt, and he was a failure.

But! That Game happened and there was a lot of tension and people (mostly, Apollo and Alaska, but he was pretty damn honest with Dirk about how he felt about things, which was a first with the team) talked to him in a coherent way that wasn't lecturing and wasn't judging and wasn't telling him how he needed to be. That coincided with him connecting with Dirk in a big way, when he already saw him as someone that he could probably dick around with and not have to worry about the guy hating him for it. The whole "ironic" name thing set that in stone but he wasn't sure yet.

So, yes!

In a big way, he pretty much had to kick aside a lot of his shitty, illogical, irrational behavior and he's ... decided to like his teammates and protect them and stuff. That final decision was made during the room one, so it's his own thing to be more positive. Basically, Alaska got him to stop being a dumbass about stuff and now instead of jumping to negative thoughts, he runs it through a "is this stupid as fuck" kind of meter.

This relates back to Dirk in a number of ways. Jason's willing to talk to him and open up, and where he was before pretty much just interacting with people, he's opening up. The biggest thing aside from what I said above that defines Jason is that he's eager to please. He wants to prove himself and he defines himself in relation to other people. Him telling Dirk about the whole superhero thing kind of rolled out on an impulsive and then the flirting happened and that was kind of an impulse for him to act on, too.

It is a big thing for Jason to be taken seriously and listened to and to have camaraderie. He really wants to matter, and certain people are making him feel that way. The talk they had before they made out was a big thing for Jason and as he gets more memories back, he'll continue to realize how important it is for him to have been put on the same level with someone else. This was someone taking his feelings as if they mattered, and it was someone who clearly got that he had his heart in things a lot more than he tended to let on. For Jason, it's partly "not expressing himself well" and partly "I don't know when I'm expressing something because I'm all in anyway." It hadn't even occurred to Jason to think about what he was going for with Dirk, because while he is a thinker and is incredibly smart, he doesn't always ... think through his ties with people. His head kind of tends to twist things pretty badly, so he's trying not to listen to it.

Because of alllll this, he likes and respects and likes Dirk a lot. He thinks he's pretty damn smart and he actually does want to get to know him. It's not just the physicality of it that he wants to have happen, but he wants to be able to actually have him as a friend. He considers him a friend and something important already, largely because of that chat. There's a part of Jason bracing himself for fucking things up because he sees himself as the type to do that, but he figures Dirk has a good head about things. The fact that he matters a lot, well, matters a lot to Jason.

Apollo took my next question so uh is Dirk going to tell Jake stuff about all this, or is that not something that enters their brocontract?

[ironicusername]

He will probably tell Jake! It's just a question of when. He knows that if he tells him too soon then Jake will use it as an excuse to shut him down in the romance department, which is bad. At this point, he's also kind of unsure about WHAT to tell Jake, too, so he is going to be feeling this thing out to settle his mind about what, exactly, is going on. But Dirk by nature is only as deceptive as he needs to be.

Jason on Jake.